Shortly after Dustin was diagnosed with Medulloblastoma  stage 4(brain cancer) I was a walking mess. I couldn’t sleep, or eat. I was in a constant state of depression. Dustin’s doctors saw that I wasn’t doing well and told me to see my Primary Care Physician. He prescribed a sleeping medication along with something for anxiety.By the time Dustin was released from the hospital, which was months, I was totaling dependent on the pills.

When Dustin was finally away from the hospital and we had a few weeks before many rounds of chemo and radiation began ,we decided to leave Oklahoma City for a  week and go to a peaceful resort area in eastern Oklahoma. We rented a very nice furnished cabin with a balcony and perfect  view.  Things were a little better but I was still on the pills. One evening , while at the cabin, I went to the bathroom to get ready for bed. I had just finished showering and was about to grabbed for the pills when I heard this loud audible voice say, “TRAVONNA, IF YOU TAKE ONE MORE OF THOSE PILLS YOU WILL DIE!”  The voice was so loud it scared me to death.  I knew it wasn’t Jim or Dustin because they were on the balcony. I whispered, “Lord is that you?” I didn’t hear one more word, but I knew it was God.  That night I flushed those pills now the bathroom toilet. It was like throwing away my crutch.Many of my friends and family have said to me, what I heard wasn’t audible that it was probably a combination of circumstances. They explain it away by saying I was so upset and the pills were probably making me hallucinate . However,I know what I heard, and I believe if I had been at home and heard that voice and flush the pills down the commode I would have been at the doctors office the next day wanting more pills. The Lord knew to speak to me while I was in that remote area because the next few nights were terrible. I couldn’t sleep, I had headaches and felt awful.  Being in the middle of nowhere I couldn’t do much but endure the withdrawals.  When we returned home I thought about going and getting another script but by that time I was doing better.It didn’t happen overnight it was difficult but I know that if I hadn’t listened to God something horrible would have happened. I have never heard that audible voice again. God has spoken to me  many times through the Holy Spirit, but never in a Loud Voice.  I told my husband about the voice , he too, knew it was God.

We serve an Amazing Awesome God!